I am not sure...

... Why I have made the whole blogging thing so complicated for myself for so long. I mean, it's how I established myself as a writer. My blogging led to an actual writing career--the very first career I dreamed of as a kid.

It's probably that I established myself in a subject that is inherently controversial and, well, negative--crime. Worse, still, I was pretty good at writing about it, or I never would have gotten paid gigs. But the darkness got to me. It fused with an already deeply depressive streak in my personality and at what should have been the height of my career as a crime writer--an appearance on a popular TV news magazine, CBS's 48 Hours Mystery--I realized I really hated what I was doing. I didn't hate writing. That's what I'm most meant to do. I hated being a "true crime writer" of any stripe. I hated that I'd let the subject take me over, dominate so much of my thinking.

But because I'd established a strong online identity as a true crime writer/blogger, I developed a general love-hate thing with blogging. It was manifested by constant changes of blog address and difficulty producing content in general.

But ah, fuck it. Blogging is writing. I know that. I'm sure I've written ridiculously long blog posts about it, in the past.

Weirdly, my family's move to New England seems to have jiggered loose the massive block that was threatening not just personal writing pursuits like this blog and fiction I never share but even my paid work. I'm embracing that. It's my job. It's what I have to do, aside from staying alive and in good health so I can be around for my wife and kids.

So this blog will updated more often. Probably not with anything too serious, but with, uh, writing and stuff.

NOTE: Hardcore bloggers into blogging trends may wonder, by the way, "why blogspot?" 


Well, Wordpress is more stylish and has nicer looking templates. Tumblr is super-trendy. Jux is beautiful, but pretty limited at the moment, from the creator's standpoint. Blogger, simply put, lets you do more shit. And in a way, I feel like I'm fucking with some sort of vague blogging standard by using Blogger. It's not, for lack of a better word, "cool" right now. Even though it's actually the most flexible content creation blogging platform by far, next to Wordpress's self-installed software. So that's why I've settled, finally, on using my Blogspot address, kids--I'm a rebel. A loner. An idiot.